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I’ve probably written that I love traveling and flying like a hundred times. But now that I’m in the plane on my way home from Budapest, I just can’t do anything but smile like the dorkieat person on earth. One of the best weeks in my life just passed. I’m soooo lucky. I found a […]

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Ridiculously beautiful weather for a funeral.   One of the most sorrowful days I’ve ever lived through. A small party of 20 family members gathered to remember and honor L in the small church of Porvoo. It hurts so bad. Seeing your loved ones cry and realising that they know the horrifying truth that we’ll […]

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Such a beautiful weather today! Especially in Porvoo, almost as beautiful as this, 2 years ago. But that was probably the only really good thing. I stayed up too late, called a friend in the morning, had just fallen back to sleep when I had to get up to do a workthing (8.30-ish, school started […]

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It’s been a few really rough days. Perhaps the toughest my family has ever had to go through. Bursting into tears any minute and battling the way up from bed and onto life. Doing the dishes is another level of hell. And no person should be doing funeral programs or obituaries. But in another universe, […]

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I’m gonna share something tonight. When I came home from my language course last summer, the 19th of July, my Mom was sitting on my floor, crying. And she explained to me that her twin sister, my aunt, my godmother and our family-member L was ill. And that the Porvoo hospital though it was a […]

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I don’t know what to say. Do you ever get used to goodbyes? What about horrible news? Once again I wonder why they don’t teach you to handle things like these in school. What are you supposed to do, who are you supposed to ask, and how are you supposed to survive when a chapter […]

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Life is just a fucking lot of time with faces coming and going. Everytime a new face comes in, all that time suddenly feels meaningful. And everytime they go, you realise it was all just an illusion. That you’re alone in the end and that there is no one else to trust than yourself. You’re […]