Ridiculously beautiful weather for a funeral.   One of the most sorrowful days I’ve ever lived through. A small party of 20 family members gathered to remember and honor L in the small church of Porvoo. It hurts so bad. Seeing your loved ones cry and realising that they know the horrifying truth that we’ll […]

Such a beautiful weather today! Especially in Porvoo, almost as beautiful as this, 2 years ago. But that was probably the only really good thing. I stayed up too late, called a friend in the morning, had just fallen back to sleep when I had to get up to do a workthing (8.30-ish, school started […]

It’s been a few really rough days. Perhaps the toughest my family has ever had to go through. Bursting into tears any minute and battling the way up from bed and onto life. Doing the dishes is another level of hell. And no person should be doing funeral programs or obituaries. But in another universe, […]

I’m gonna share something tonight. When I came home from my language course last summer, the 19th of July, my Mom was sitting on my floor, crying. And she explained to me that her twin sister, my aunt, my godmother and our family-member L was ill. And that the Porvoo hospital though it was a […]